He is in control!

There is always a wonderful plan from God when we thought our current situation is worst!

Exam ended at 11am and had to meet Lisman at Raffles Place to do visa application at 11.40am
No more balance credit in my phone so i must reach there earlier than Lisman
I rusheed out after finish my exam
but NP is too big and it was 11.15am when i reached the bus stop
Then i started to plan my route
"Assume the bus come at 11.16am, reach Clementi mrt station at 11.26am. It is impossible to travel to Raffles Place in 15mins! Nvm, take cab!"
I hate to take cab in Singapore, especially during peak hour!
Even though you are rich, you also hard to get a cab when you are rushing..

After 7mins, finally get a cab!
"司机,麻烦去Raffles Place."
"Hmm, 小姐, 你知道要怎样走吗? 因为今天我第一天驾德士, 不懂怎样走.."
I was stunned!
"Huh? 我也不会走耶! ok, 那不要紧, 你送我去Singapore Poly就可以了."
"小姐只要你会走就可以了"
Stunned again!
After that, the driver told me that she was lost actually
LOL I was thinking is it one of God's plan?
Perhaps the driver could find her way after sent me?

After i get off the cab, i rushed to Dover mrt station.
While waiting for the train coming, i took my phone out
1 unread msg from Lisman, opened it -
"Joyce, take your time. Just realized that they receive visa application until 2pm, so take your lunch first. I'll see you at Raffles Place mrt at 12.45pm instead. Do reply to confirm."
A nice JOKE from God!

Cos I thought the embassy receive visa application till 12pm, i rush.
Cos no more balance credit in phone, i was thinking that i have to reach earlier than Lisman
Cos bus is very slow, i took cab.
Cos the driver was lost, God let her to drive me?
Cos I have no choice, i took train? Then i can save up my cab fees to Raffles Place
Praise Him with my grateful heart. He is in control!

And also......
Again and again, God never fail to show His miracle in my academic
I trust this time He will also!
Thank everyone who send jiayou msg to me! Appreciate it~

And thank God, finally i finish my second year in NP! =)

至少平静

在你跌入人生谷底的时候，你身旁所有的人都告诉你：要坚强，而且要快乐。
坚强是绝对需要的，但是快乐？在这种情形下，恐怕是太为难你了。
毕竟，谁能在跌得头破血流的时候还觉得高兴？
但是至少可以做到平静。

平静地看待这件事，平静地把其他该处理的事处理好。
平静，没有快乐，也没有不快乐

我想这是我现在常有的心情~

感谢主所为我预备的
你的意念总是高过我的意念 你的思想总是高过我的思想
你让我再次看到了你那不让我缺乏的恩典

还有幸好有你们 不然我不知会被困多久~
满心感激~~

少年营

你的地位无法被忽视
只要一睁眼 满脑装满都是你
那天的不欢而散 成了我几天的困扰

公归公 私归私
整个营会中 我还是不把个人感情带进去
再加上我把快乐带给大家 把痛苦留给自己的性格
所以整个营会 我还是没有就这样放弃掉

不管怎样 我还是很感恩
这么多突发状况发生 整个营会还是很顺利的落幕
至少听到少年人们说他们很享受

我要特别为那地方感恩
那里的食物可说是我参加这么多营会 有史以来超超超好吃 超超超丰富的
第一天就意大利面 法国面包 还有一些中西合并的食物
然后每天都超好睡 每次躺在床上不到几分钟我就睡着了
一觉到天亮的感觉真好!!!
如果我长期住那里 我肯定会变胖

买了些圣诞礼物 不经常买礼物的我不太会选礼物
收到我礼物的人 请不要嫌弃我的礼物 因为里面有我满满的心意

还有谢谢所有送我圣诞礼物的朋友 你们送的我都很喜欢
今年也是我收到最多礼物的圣诞节 =)

搬家

不再拿着熟悉的钥匙
不再走着熟悉的路线

不再吃香米 吃的都是糙米饭

不再听到建筑声 传来的是地铁声

我要重新认识我的地方-- 油池(Yew Tee)

"嗯,你那个叫什么名啊?"
"阿妹.."
短短的谈话就可以显示出我和我的干外婆有多陌生
我一样住进了亲戚家 不过这次是我妈妈那方的亲戚 -- 干舅舅
关系更生疏 几年见一次面
不过幸好 大家都对我很热情
我在收东西 干外婆就一直坐在旁边看我收 还一直问我够位子放吗

现在很靠近哥哥的宿舍了
以后妈妈来找我们两个可以比较方便
不过因为干舅舅的性格过于直率 在我还没搬进来前妈妈就说她不会经常来看我了 伤心下
我的皮也该绷紧点 免得得罪我的干舅舅
学校也变得很靠近了
以后不用再搭2小时的车程
不过这里比较偏僻 感觉可以搭的巴士没几辆

不管怎样 还是很感恩
他们特地买了新床铺 新被单给我

我再也不用和别人抢桌子来作功课

空出了4个架子让我放东西 现在我的东西终于有归宿了

1年半住公公家 接下来1年半住干舅舅家

上帝就这样的为我安排到美美

小小的意念就这样成就 让我能在开学前的最后一个礼拜搬家

感谢主所为我成就的 也求保守我接下来要走的..

holidays, 2days left...

Say Sorry, TQVM!!

Be thankful, during the period of organizing kukup trip
Be thankful, in fellowship in every bonding
Be thankful, get through everything with me
Be thankful, in every moment..

Sorry, i was not purposely made them absent the FES big family gathering
Sorry, if anything that i failed to do well
Sorry, if there have any misunderstanding among us
Sorry, my every white lies
Sorry, i failed to fulfill the promise between us

My sincerely apologize
even though you may feel it is not..

Had fun in the whole trip
God's grace fully filled in the trip

Touched, without reason
Perhaps have a reason and just because i don't want to say out, even face it?

I shared my everything with my mum once i stepped into my house
So nice and be thankful i have my mum
She never get tired of my every sharing
She always tell people that i have nothing hides from her
and it is just because she is always my good listener

I think i just require to take a break for a while?

Hope i can have a good sleep tonight
Having a long long time cannot sleep deeply
I long with it, really

Looking forward to every miracle to be done by You in the gospel rally
Free me, teach me, guide me
I desire for your strength, your encouragement


My holidays, 1 week left..

惊喜

一觉醒来就看到学校的信息
可能我真的睡到太迟了
不懂为什么成绩公布那天 我还是可以睡到这么香

我的成绩 出乎我意料 GPA过3!!!!!
虽然很多考得比我好的人都跑来问我成绩 而让我有点小小的妒忌
不过当我看到自己的成绩后 我是真的打从心底的开心+激动
这种感觉好像在PMR成绩后就不曾有过了

我真的觉得很感恩 神的恩典真的够我用
第一次 其中一科的presentation还没结束就被讲师喊卡 最后不能用
英文烂到极点 却偏偏自己的课程是一大堆的presentation
明明就会的 结果上了考场做到一塌糊涂
其中一科因为没有点子 所以老师给的第二个机会都放弃掉
为了继续在理工学院生存 绞尽脑汁想办法不用妈妈一分钱就能缴学费
现实的理工学院 没有钱交学费什么都是假的
为了一个马来西亚半奖学金半助学金 去应征 结果被评到惨
或许妈妈说得对 我是不能被激的
说是为了得到那赞助金也好 还是让那个赞助商掉眼镜也好
我确实努力了 虽然努力的有点迟 不过我真的做到了!!!!
本来一心想放弃那个赞助金 现在反而盟起一小点的期望
如果这是神的旨意 没有一件是不可能的吧!

感谢主 这是你给我最好的超龄儿童节礼物
就算没得到 愿我能继续抓着那个热诚迎接我接下来的学期

最近的自己 爱玩的性格似乎回来了
不过退化了点 无辜者或许能暂时觉得侥幸 哈哈

我的朋友 几个月前我以为你开始和我一样爱玩
没想到最后你还是回到了那个点 谢谢你送的大惊喜 也希望你是真的幸福

曾经的贵人 谢谢你所留下的
你的离开 让我措手不及
不知你在何方 但愿你一切都好

拼了·遗憾没了

真的是为了这次的考试拼上了
是中三以后第一次真正认真的面对考试
可以说是为了那个奖学金而拼的吧

三张考卷 就三个晚上没睡
我的生活作息已经变成48小时 然后冬眠12小时
几万亿脑细胞应该因为这场考试而牺牲生命了

这么努力 结果死在最后一张
明明我是okay的 结果来个头痛
头脑里的资料顿时来个大搬家 乱成一团
本来把握的题目 最后还是死到惨惨
GPA应该会因为这一张拉低很多

惊讶我竟然没emo 内心还是很平静
或许是自己真的努力了吧
成绩怎样也不在乎了
有没有拿到奖学金也不重要了

我始终没忘记那个在我来这里之前你所为我许下的承诺
谢谢你让我对自己有很高的期待
却也适时地放下我的得失心 才让我不会活得这么痛苦
我拿不拿得到 我都愿意谦卑顺你旨意.....

The Worst Interview

为了奖学金特地搭巴士去KL
其实是50%奖学金，50%贷款
也是我第一次自己一个人搭巴士去到这么远的地方
感觉很奇怪 也没什么安全感

去面试 说是拿个经验 不过还是会抱点期望
毕竟拿到了 我就不用每天担心在新加坡的所有开销了
但老实说 这个45分钟的interview把我弄到很低落
感觉整个过程就像2个警官在问我这个犯人
调查我所有的家庭背景
带着傲慢的语气 吐了一大堆的问题
带着轻视的表情 感觉我的答案充满了一堆疑点
整个过程 我从紧张转变成压力 很辛苦
一出来 真有一大口的口气呼出来
情绪依旧在 所以找个地方坐下来打电话回家
最后在大庭广众下 第二次掉眼泪 不错丢脸下

最后为了疏解情绪而决定自己搭11巴士独自去双峰塔
本来以为可以走skybridge 没票了 算了 逛书局
可能之前哭过 所以容易觉得眼睡
没办法就下楼看画展 不错的有气质下
我很喜欢那里的painting work
因为自己画不出 所以觉得他们很厉害
自己的画能被展览 我想他们应该觉得很光荣
他们有自己的梦想 而我的梦想在哪里?
走着走着 情绪就这样消失了
可能最后真的累过头了 一路回来都几乎都在睡觉

我想这次的Interview可能没真的很烂 只是对自己的表现有点小失望吧 (act 乐天派)
不过我感恩的是 那里的负责人告诉我其实他们是在截止日期后才收到我的申请表格
上帝的怜悯吧 他们本可以取消我的资格 可我却得到这样的机会(虽然说未必会得到)

在那里我也第一次吃臭豆腐 恶心绝顶
放进嘴巴 感觉就像喝到老鼠的尿
也谢谢有美莹的收留 还有他几个朋友
带我绕KLCC 第一次玩Left 4 dead
虽然累 但是还是很开心 =)

也让我明白 一个人会说谎 是因为他害怕
但有时说实话 结果或许不会如想象中的坏
但一旦说谎了 可能结果更坏 也累了自己

会不会得到 我不想期待了 那么一小点的期待都不想有
反正从我去新加坡读书的那一天起 我的经济开销都得靠对神的信心
所以就继续抱这样的相信吧 神会给我一切不足的 而且会是最上好的

Expectation

"Have you ever had expectations that did not get fulfilled? Perhaps a coworker let you down. Perhaps you were trusting God for something in your life that never materialized. Perhaps you became devastated by an unmet expectation that you felt you were entitled to."

Everyday, i receive email which contains with God's words and prayer. Sometimes, it's very surprising when receive it with a title that may related to my current life. Feel like God talks to me face by face. And yeap, i feel good!

I have a lot of expectation lately, even more and more greedy. I hope everything should be and must be in my hand. I cannot tolerate with any flaw. However, seem like God is trying to oppose against me. What i put higher expectation to, i cannot get it easily. Hence, i frustrated! I despair! "Why? How come? It's unfair to me! Does God still be my side?" i really think about these! I even blame God! I scream to Him like a kid scream to her mum when her mum doesn't want to buy the toys to her. I cry like a baby.

Despite of these, He never gives me up. He just wants me to surrender everything to Him. I seem like lost everything yet He gives me more than these. I'm always graceful and blessful. And i thank God for giving me a chance to learn what is receive by faith. We cannot predict our future but God is my life guarantor. He sends me guardian angels to guide and protect me.

"Yes!Yes!Yes!" Trying to give this response when someone is asking your help no matter you think you are not able to do. But just you not able to do. It doesn't means God is not able to do! Cos nothing is impossible to Him! And of course, it's my homework too!

I need Your mercy, Lord!
Please show me where I am wrong and give me the wisdom, courage, and conviction to repent and to always do what is right.
On my bed I remember you; I think of you through the watches of the night.

Deeply Feel..

It supposed to fill with my complaints again at first. But God is amazing in every time. He let me busy with something to calm down before i have time to post my blog.

I know there has something wrong inside me. Angry? Frustrate? Desperate? Psychological imbalance? I not sure. I just feel something bad inside.

Due to i'm the youngest among them, so that they treat me like a little sister? So they have to tolerate my everything which related to me? Think i should feel grateful for this kind of treatment more than complaint it. Yet i can't get used to it!! In the past, i always be the da-jie-da(leader) like that. In home church, in group, at home, even sometimes in school, i seldom be the smallest. Perhaps God is putting me into this place and let me feel as well?

Honestly, i feel tough in the sharing time. Why? Because everyone share their experience in eng. When is my turn, bro & sis will tell me:"Joyce, you can speak in chinese!". Perhaps i should think in this way, as in they just don't want me become stress? It's just a concern? Actually, i rather have someone give me chance to speak eng and correct me when i'm in wrong in pronounce or what than indulge me. Anyway, i know the day will coming. I believe, God will gives me His beautiful things in His time!!!!

I just realise currently i tend to be a listener than a speaker. In the fellowship, i always be a listener. It's quite tough for me, actually. Cause previously i can just talked talked talked what i wanted to say. Perhaps it's also one of the homework that God give me to learn? It's the time for me learn to quiet? However, in some part of my feeling, i felt that i not really get involved in the fellowship though i joined them to Austin's trip. Our relationship just built in the surface of friendship only and that's all!! Why? Due to time gathering is not enough yet? I'm still waiting for an answer for this................

Anyway, i was glad because
1. Finally, i ate grapes!!! It tastes nice!!!(it had been a long long time since i ate grapes last time)
2. Finally, i went for K!!! Though the people who went with me is not you all..
3. Finally, i went to HARRIS where is located at Tebrau!!!!! If i don't have guitar lesson and not need to be a pianist in service tmr, i know i won't be back with them and stay there till i satisfy. And i hope i have a lot of cash in my hands to buy the books that i want at once. But so sad, too poor recently. Forget it!! ='(

And this journey makes me looking forward to FMC family trip more and more RIGHT NOW!!!!!

*I just realise you're really not my taste.*

Awesome Day

Today is awesome day!!!!!!

First thing is i slept at 9pm yesterday and i woke up at 7.30am today. The feeling was so great!! So long time i never had such a good sleep after my school reopen. Always tired like hell.. Stress, stress and stress. That's why it makes me quite miss my m'sia life so much, especially secondary school life. No stress, play, slacking, ponteng, have fun in school even in the exam period. Hence, when people come to ask me how can i enter to poly, i usually tell them that is God's grace. Cause i really don't think my result can get into poly since i never put lot of efforts in my SPM.

A lot of people in the train when i went school. Finally found a seat. Just sat a while, got a voice asked me to give up the seat. I looked around and shocked. Really got a auntie who looks around 60++ years old walked into the train. Surely i gave up that seat immediately. When a guy who sat beside the auntie left, the auntie asked me sat beside her. I refused but she insisted on. So i went to sat beside her. When she prepared to alight from the train, she said "Jesus loves you." to me. I stunned there. Honestly, i was troubled with a lot of things recently. My faith started 动摇.. Seem like this words remind me once again, Lord is faithfulness. He will provides me everything.

God never fail to implement his promise. He showed His faithfulness again. He makes impossible to possible. Actually, the "big" problem that i faced before God shows His faithfulness is my living expense. Because i just have less than $50 for my meals in this month. Can you imagine your purse just has around $50 and you still got 1 month to go? Surely i worry of it! I don't want tell my parents. Don't want be their burden since they are also over-spent in this few months. However, God really shows His grace to me. My 2nd aunt asked me send money to her son but got something popped out. Then my 2nd aunt asked me to keep it. So my living expense should be okay now. Thank God!!

After went to astronomy club with jiafeng and siying, i prepared to back home. I ran into YanQiu who is from CF. Quite surprise when i saw her. Still remember that our 1st meet is in the CCA fiesta. That time, i suppose to go toilet. But when i saw her, got a voice asked me to intro about CF to her. So i ran back to took the flyer and started approach her. From the beginning, she threw everything out that she doesn't like go to church though she is a christian. But she felt we are interesting so end up she signed up. Thank God that she really join in CF!! Then we took bus together, as in she lives at Bedok and i live at Tampines so that we can take same bus all the way back home. Chat a lot and met her dad also!!!! So coincidence!! Enjun said seems like God really put me and her together. Maybe so.. Probably something special between me and her? I'm looking forward to how God leads us..

Anyway, full of thanksgiving.. Today is an AWESOME day to me!!!!!

CF FOC 2010

Yup, finally CF FOC 2010 is going to end.

Through this camp, i can see how God's work. How to say? Hmm, be frank, i very worry about this camp. Since someone told me that FOC not really got too many people sign up.. Then many problems came out by last minute. Seriously, it was a big trouble for me. But God's grace, He reminded me the power of pray through sis Eng Ing and bro Titus.

When i got the name list of the FOC camp, 26 persons signed up! 7 persons are freshmen. 3 of the freshmen are going to NP year 1. The main point is 4 of them are non-christians. Even though our target of the person who sign up are 40 persons, but God has His own plan. He arrange them come to join us. I trust it's not simply convenience.

Play play play all the time. Had fun. Had good bonding in Big Family. And can share God's words with sisters and brothers. Really had a good time here! And God also prepare a good weather for us! Before this camp, the weather was unpredictable. Praise our God! =)

Actually quite relax to be a camp leader. Because committees helped me do all the things. Don't say i bully my committees or what. I also tried to find something to help them. But also thanks God that prepare you all to helped me. You all really helped me a lot and i learn a lot from you all. Good job man...

Lastly, Give all praises, glories and thanks to our God once again!!!

I like it!!

Well, i pon COMM TOOL lesson today
Sleep till around 1pm
quite late, that feel so good
somemore my "panda eyes" disappear >.<

Do OOP, wash my clothes
Evening go swimming, wohoooooo!!
nobody acc me, just me alone

=Skip the part of how a silly girl find the pool in Tampines stadium=

Many coach at there, but no one is my coach
quite a long time never have a swim
(Usually just simply play water~)
then my swimming skill become suck, haizzzz..

Maybe just me alone, kinda sien...
just swim 30mins, then go bathe liao

My hair and skin damn dry now
too much chlorine in the pool..........

After shower, feel like wanna faint down
Maybe hungry liao!!
but just wanna eat chocolate, don't know why haha

Go 7-11 find the chocolate
meanwhile paid my broadband fees
After that go buy bread for my next day breakfast
no $1 bread anymore~~ T.T

Buy strawberry green tea
i think i start to like it!!
Also go paid my bus concession fee

Lastly walk back home
i think i had walk around 1000 steps
Yup, is a start of healthy life!!

I like today!!!
n such like this slow pace of life ♥ ♥

阿爸好惜我

阿爸好惜我...

假期我都回咖啡店帮忙做cashier
现在总觉得坐在那里傻傻 有点显
做工不能打电话 所以就sms 结果会被nag

算了 就什么都不用作
等钱来就好....
心里就有个念头想听歌
总觉得或许歌曲可以帮我减轻点烦躁

哈哈 结果很巧
有一桌印度人看到channel 5正播michael jackson的演唱会
他们要求把电视机开大声
虽然没什么听MJ的歌
但最起码我终于可以听歌了
还可以欣赏下他的舞蹈 =)

跟家人去Sutera Mall逛街
看到有人吃番石榴
番石榴的味道诱惑 让我突然好想吃
可是爸爸讲那里的水果贵到爆
所以打消念头 失望了下
结果 回咖啡店
头手拿了一桶的番石榴 问我要不要吃
哈哈 吃到爽爽

小小心意 小小要求
上帝都这样满足我
I love U........... muackssss!!

明天就要回新加坡了
我的生活又要打回原形.......

阿爸父

我好爱我的阿爸父
刚才搭巴士回家
在巴士突然嗅到KFC的味道
很香 突然让我有冲动想吃炸鸡
不过最后因为省钱 逼自己打消念头
结果回到家 我傻了
就这么巧 我公公刚好炸很多只炸鸡
我的天啊
虽然冷掉不脆了
不过想到这就是一种恩典 就觉得这些炸鸡很好吃
吃在口里 甜在心里 呵呵呵呵

本来明天的时间是超满的
上完课 就去洗车 洗完就喝绍菁姐会面吃晚餐 过后去SP的布道会服侍
忙到晚上9点多 non stop
刚突然收到绍菁姐的信息 她不得空
我想这应该是上帝的安排吧 希望我在布道会前好好预备自己
希望明天的布道会能够很顺利进行
一切交给神；荣耀归给你!!

最近自己又回去跳舞了
也会在28号表演Jazz dance
回家路上有种空虚的感觉
思绪乱糟糟 心情更沉进谷底
好像我不再是我 不喜欢这样的自己

我脸上没什么 不代表就是如此
我宁可走进自己的世界 也不要进入那不能接受我的世界
那种眼光 气氛 证明了有些事实是应该面对接受的
我不想继续在私底下拼命挣扎 不断呐喊自己的无能
我只想相信我作的决定会是你应许我作的事

今天!!!?? 真是无言

今天很特别
上帝的安排 我只能惊叹

回来马来西亚
顺便买盒月饼回家
突然遇到文杰和他女朋友逛街
出CS 看到晖洋在巴士上
尴尬这样的缘分

在等巴士中
突然有个意念告诉我 我的巴士两点才会来
刚开始 我不在乎它
因为那时才1点 我的妈呀
真的可能会在这里等上1小时咩!??
结果真的咯 2点巴士才开车
上帝 你真的是Joker man

巴士送我到我家花园外面
走路进去时 遇到Pn Phua
跟他打声招呼
再继续往前走一点
又遇到我教会安娣--莲丝姐
呵呵 我家的花园好像没这么小吧
这样的巧合 再次惊叹上帝的安排

然后 被我弟硬推回去咖啡店做工
因为我弟他睡眠不足
再加上那里的老板一直问我几时回来
去做工前 去Season和那里的马来人拜个年
曾经同事一场
结果 其中一个同事生了一个孩子
八个月大后死了 我傻掉
另外一个同事也结婚了
我的妈呀 我离开这么久了吗??
怎么我的消息update这么慢

去做工 突然接到美莹的电话
很惊讶 还在思索他会突然找我会有什么事
原来 她爸在家附近车祸
我又吓到了 我走不开 老板帮我去现场看
结果他形容到很恐怖
一些有在现场帮忙的顾客也形容一点
听到电话那头的声音 我也开始紧张了
差不多要跟你一起哭了啦~~~
不过幸好现在她爸平安了 我有帮你祷告哦!!

放工前 大家开始疯了
除了我 老板 老板娘 头手 二手 周叔
他们开始玩水战 薯粉战 肥皂战
当时还有顾客哦 他们也这样玩
边玩边做工 衣服湿湿serve顾客
本来我没玩的 结果还是整身湿湿回家
他们全部站在店外standby两桶水等我收完账
跑不过 泼到整身湿淋淋 顾客在旁当戏看
幸好我穿超深的衣服 不然肯定走光光

真的很感谢主
不管是好是坏 我都懂你在看着我
看着我笑 跟着我哭
帮我安排一切大小事务
我只能在旁惊叹 赞美你的作为多么奥妙
你真的是我的好良伴!!!!!!

A Good Day

Today i just worked half of day
5.30pm-10pm

When i reached there
i just knew my manager took mc this morning
so happy
i got freedom again, LOL

More, assistant manager just worked in morning shift
so he left already when i started my work

I seemed as though got strength and power again
Ah Mun also thought i'm got fever, haha
because i did my work as fast as i can

Then i was so paiseh when i met 2 person
Gin sister-she introduced this job to me, but i just worked 2 weeks and say sayonara then.
Amy sister-she's the one who interview me. Before i started work, i promised her that i'll work full time until i start my school. i'll change to part time then. but at last, i broke this promise.
VERY VERY sorry!!!!!

Aside from these,
May sister also introduced a job to me--cashier
at Simei
maybe also quite near from house
i decide go interview tomorrow
but i think my chance very slim

Anyway, i also plan go to tuition centre to try my luck
go interview to be a part time tutor
Please bless me!
and tq for God's grace
and so touching because You love me!

饯别

最后 我还是开口辞职了
我会做到这个星期完
不过经理还是要我随时standby
如果餐馆需要人手时, 他会再联络我
所以我可能可以参与我的课外活动了

伙计知道我即将离开后
都不断跑来问我是不是真的

副经理一直问我是不是真的这么舍得他们
Ah Mun也一直说 你就好咯 这么快就要离开了
没想到 之前我还complain她这么多
如今我们竟然好到讲话 玩闹 大笑在一块
哈哈

Clemend 我知道你对我很好 每个人都认为你是我的靠山
对于我的离开 还是要跟你说声抱歉

Ah Mun 虽然你老是把你的快乐建立在别人的痛苦上
不过你还是有些地方真的很好
我想我离开后会暂时不习惯 再也没有人在欺负我的日子
不过mayb just a couple of days, i think, wakaka!

Ah Xia 你总是告诉我你在中国的故事
我每次都听到快要睡着了 不过我都会撑着眼睛听你说完
现在我要离开了 Clemend就还给你了啦 不要一直在那里争风吃醋了 哈哈

May姐 店里的新潮妈妈
我蛮喜欢你的笑声 呵呵呵呵呵呵呵呵呵呵呵的
总之 加油咯

还有后面的中国厨师 你们的菜很好吃 不过真的很油捏
可能我真的在餐馆呆一个月 或许真的会被Clemend说中 被你们养胖了
你们知道吗 我妈妈说我的身材好像有点走样了耶
所以 我要开始很努力努力进入减肥计划了

总之 我会永远记得你们这些大哥哥 大姐姐 uncle auntie的
不管我会不会偶尔再回去帮忙 还是不会再回去了
我都会永远永远记得你们带给我的悲喜交加 哭笑不得的日子


今天的我 又失败了
或许有些事情 不能知道的 还是不要让好奇心死命的把它掏出来
可能那个真相 会是无法负荷的
永远带着猜测的心面对那个不能被掀开的真相 继续带着幻想美化它
可以说是一种逃避 但却可能会好过得多

没有埋怨 没有怨恨 只能傻笑一切事情的发生
或许真的该清醒了 也是时候把自己敲醒了
什么期望 承诺 灭了 散了 消失了 永远都不再有任何的意义存在
Forever and ever~~

Off day

今天 耳根暂时清静了好多
因为经理今天off day
哈哈 大家期待已久的日子

照常很多人 忙到团团转
而且我发现顾客好像特别喜欢叫我
我转到头快晕掉了 哈哈

而且 厨房楼面一团糟
出错菜 出错单
真的是幸好经理不在 副经理脾气好啊
不然整间餐馆会成为世界级战争现场

有一桌顾客吃了没给钱
真是气死人!!!!
结果副经理自己贴那个钱

有些顾客要求多多
他一张桌子就要跑好几次
应该要加他的service charge

有些顾客明看到现场这么多人
还要求我们赶快出菜给他
拜托 醒目一点 我们又不是只做你一单的生意

总之 真的要好好谢谢副经理,Clemend
幸好还有他 不然我应该会更惨
then我应该也很早就跟这个工sayonara了

小糊涂虫

本来今天很moody的
不过过后不懂做么心情来个大逆转
心情漂亮
不过最后还是没去之前想去的地方

考Accounting 还ok啦
知道自己会错一些地方
有一项还被骗了 和priscilla一样
不过我不会跟你一起抱着哭 去ICT blk跳楼 哈哈
总的来说 没什么在意

回家之前
有个男生突然走来跟我打招呼
我傻掉 My god...
头脑里对他没影响
很不好意思问他你是谁
原来是CF的
有点小尴尬
因为我本身就很怕跟人打招呼 对方反应是你是谁
结果现在我的反应还是~~~
还跟他上同辆巴士
幸好有Elisse在我旁边
有人在我旁边跟我讲话
再加上巴士太多人 我被挤去了后面
才剩了和那男生之间沉静的尴尬

老实说 我到现在还是想不起他叫什么名
真的很paiseh啦
人家记得我 我还忘了他
忘了名字可能还能原谅 连样子都.....
是糊涂 还是少年失忆

啊~~对了
我之前参加的试音audition被入选了
好高兴!!! :)