Expectation

"Have you ever had expectations that did not get fulfilled? Perhaps a coworker let you down. Perhaps you were trusting God for something in your life that never materialized. Perhaps you became devastated by an unmet expectation that you felt you were entitled to."

Everyday, i receive email which contains with God's words and prayer. Sometimes, it's very surprising when receive it with a title that may related to my current life. Feel like God talks to me face by face. And yeap, i feel good!

I have a lot of expectation lately, even more and more greedy. I hope everything should be and must be in my hand. I cannot tolerate with any flaw. However, seem like God is trying to oppose against me. What i put higher expectation to, i cannot get it easily. Hence, i frustrated! I despair! "Why? How come? It's unfair to me! Does God still be my side?" i really think about these! I even blame God! I scream to Him like a kid scream to her mum when her mum doesn't want to buy the toys to her. I cry like a baby.

Despite of these, He never gives me up. He just wants me to surrender everything to Him. I seem like lost everything yet He gives me more than these. I'm always graceful and blessful. And i thank God for giving me a chance to learn what is receive by faith. We cannot predict our future but God is my life guarantor. He sends me guardian angels to guide and protect me.

"Yes!Yes!Yes!" Trying to give this response when someone is asking your help no matter you think you are not able to do. But just you not able to do. It doesn't means God is not able to do! Cos nothing is impossible to Him! And of course, it's my homework too!

I need Your mercy, Lord!
Please show me where I am wrong and give me the wisdom, courage, and conviction to repent and to always do what is right.
On my bed I remember you; I think of you through the watches of the night.