So cold..
Today, rainning non-stop from the evening
my heart also rainning
this weather make me feel sleepy
and tempted me go to sleep
My daily timeline ruinned eventually
Haizzzzzz..
Have lunch with my dear father just now
he had accident after he called me yesterday
falling down from his motorbike again
my father complained his injury very pain
that irresponsible driver~~ ugh!!!!
Very surprise when grandfather recomment a book to me
about the "horoscope"
LOL.....
Kinda regretful made a decision yesterday
do a silly thing
sincerely pray that that person never recognize my voice
never doubt the person is me.....
Although it had passed a long long time ago
that person still can influence me...
make me crazy till i don't know what i'm doing
Is she lost something or she just realize something??
confusing..
2009年10月30日星期五
Life
Year 2009 almost going to the end
do u have any change in this year?
do u achieve ur target which u'd planned before u started ur 2009's life?
Honestly, my life had a big change
I come to survive in a new life that i never thought, never dreamt before
go through many many things
go through many many feeling
"GIVE UP!! BACK TO M'SIA~"
this sentence came into my mind few times
still wonder how i survive till now
haven't give up eventually, just obey and obey
Is god's grace, i know
Become more emo, no reason, no why
i always shut myself in my own world
remain silent, stop being a clown of the life
Do my true self, my things that i want
Ignore how other look at me
I find out that's a way i can enjoy my life
peace of my mind and rest in Your hands
Natural and unrestrained
and not Joyce who u knew before...
So if u notice that i don't want talk much, please don't force me!!
Thanks~
Since the day of i came here
i realize that actually my adaptability not very well
need a long long time to adapt everything
I thought my tears dried, don't know how to cry already
However i still be a cry baby here, LOL
maybe i haven't find a place where can truely adapt me yet
but is it a excuse to explain my adaptability?
blur-ing also very visible in these days
always outside the situation and stunned there, don't know what's going on
my clumsy always spoil many things, many plans
very depressed and frustrated about it
However i realize that the more i want to make it better, the more i make it worse
Just let it be~~
I also notice that still have many things waiting for me
wait for me to overcome, to learn, to enjoy
Very regret about my slack before
so now, i need to start everything again and catch others as fast as i can
Despite of my tired, i always remind myself to change my view for these "challenging"
Still insist to say "Hallelujah, praise my Lord!" no matter how worse of my life
is tough, but i believe someday i can do it!
2 months more
I want to appreciate those days and enjoy it!
Achieve my target as more as i can
make my life more dramatic!!
Go Go Go!!!!
do u have any change in this year?
do u achieve ur target which u'd planned before u started ur 2009's life?
Honestly, my life had a big change
I come to survive in a new life that i never thought, never dreamt before
go through many many things
go through many many feeling
"GIVE UP!! BACK TO M'SIA~"
this sentence came into my mind few times
still wonder how i survive till now
haven't give up eventually, just obey and obey
Is god's grace, i know
Become more emo, no reason, no why
i always shut myself in my own world
remain silent, stop being a clown of the life
Do my true self, my things that i want
Ignore how other look at me
I find out that's a way i can enjoy my life
peace of my mind and rest in Your hands
Natural and unrestrained
and not Joyce who u knew before...
So if u notice that i don't want talk much, please don't force me!!
Thanks~
Since the day of i came here
i realize that actually my adaptability not very well
need a long long time to adapt everything
I thought my tears dried, don't know how to cry already
However i still be a cry baby here, LOL
maybe i haven't find a place where can truely adapt me yet
but is it a excuse to explain my adaptability?
blur-ing also very visible in these days
always outside the situation and stunned there, don't know what's going on
my clumsy always spoil many things, many plans
very depressed and frustrated about it
However i realize that the more i want to make it better, the more i make it worse
Just let it be~~
I also notice that still have many things waiting for me
wait for me to overcome, to learn, to enjoy
Very regret about my slack before
so now, i need to start everything again and catch others as fast as i can
Despite of my tired, i always remind myself to change my view for these "challenging"
Still insist to say "Hallelujah, praise my Lord!" no matter how worse of my life
is tough, but i believe someday i can do it!
2 months more
I want to appreciate those days and enjoy it!
Achieve my target as more as i can
make my life more dramatic!!
Go Go Go!!!!
2009年10月28日星期三
2009年10月25日星期日
2009年10月23日星期五
New semester
Okie, quite a long time never come here to update my blog
Now i started my school already
get into my 2nd semester
Haven't back to see my brothers and sisters who in the FMC yet
miss you all a lot!!!
i may go back on 15th Nov, k??
Also pray i can go the youth trip with you all in the end of the year
New modules, new teacher
getting harder and kinda can't make it, espeacially EIS..
The questions so chim!!
However, more and more god's grace in my life
My COMT teacher quite nice
she's a steady and freestyle girl
i like her a lot in my 1st sight
hope i can adapt there as fast as i can
can improve my language there as well
It's God told me this moning---
God doesn't partition you into pieces and loves some and not loves others. That's what people do. That...'s what you do. God, who created you, accepts and loves every little part of you, even those you deny and hate in yourself. So next time you try to dislike a part of you, just pause, look and remember that God loves it.
Maybe i should discard some of my thought away
Hope it also can encourage you~
Now i started my school already
get into my 2nd semester
Haven't back to see my brothers and sisters who in the FMC yet
miss you all a lot!!!
i may go back on 15th Nov, k??
Also pray i can go the youth trip with you all in the end of the year
New modules, new teacher
getting harder and kinda can't make it, espeacially EIS..
The questions so chim!!
However, more and more god's grace in my life
My COMT teacher quite nice
she's a steady and freestyle girl
i like her a lot in my 1st sight
hope i can adapt there as fast as i can
can improve my language there as well
It's God told me this moning---
God doesn't partition you into pieces and loves some and not loves others. That's what people do. That...'s what you do. God, who created you, accepts and loves every little part of you, even those you deny and hate in yourself. So next time you try to dislike a part of you, just pause, look and remember that God loves it.
Maybe i should discard some of my thought away
Hope it also can encourage you~
2009年10月17日星期六
Moody
Today i suppose to move back to Singapore before the school start soon
because i gt a workshop
Very moody after finish the workshop
I know the workshop is very great for a worshiper
but i just absorb 30% of things in overall event eventually
The main problem is the language
Because it's such like a international event
so u noe, English, my die knot......
Their english blah blah blah, very fast.. angmoh slant..
I must use many strength to hear what they talking about
I not enough sleep yesterday, very sleepy there
More, the workshop fees not my paid
So such paiseh i was when En Qi sis ask me how i feel, what i learn from this workshop
Not very surprise when she gave me a very surprising face!!
I really waste my time, the people's effort and money.. Sry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Anyway, i still very enjoy the worship time
i just can free in front my God on that time!
Now, i got 1 good new and 1 bad new
Good new is I see my God's salvation in my family again
Thank and praise our Lord!
Bad new is my mum fall in the trap again
That also the reason i hadn't a enough sleep yesterday..
because i gt a workshop
Very moody after finish the workshop
I know the workshop is very great for a worshiper
but i just absorb 30% of things in overall event eventually
The main problem is the language
Because it's such like a international event
so u noe, English, my die knot......
Their english blah blah blah, very fast.. angmoh slant..
I must use many strength to hear what they talking about
I not enough sleep yesterday, very sleepy there
More, the workshop fees not my paid
So such paiseh i was when En Qi sis ask me how i feel, what i learn from this workshop
Not very surprise when she gave me a very surprising face!!
I really waste my time, the people's effort and money.. Sry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Anyway, i still very enjoy the worship time
i just can free in front my God on that time!
Now, i got 1 good new and 1 bad new
Good new is I see my God's salvation in my family again
Thank and praise our Lord!
Bad new is my mum fall in the trap again
That also the reason i hadn't a enough sleep yesterday..
2009年10月15日星期四
My Life 14-10-2009
Now, my holidays last 4days only
So i decided to take a good rest since last week
resign my S'pore part-time job
then back to my hometown - M'sia
however, i still got M'sia job
b'cos lack of worker there
so i can't leave them alone
anyway, cherish these days....
Still wonder how can i sleep around 14-15hours
When i woke up, it's 4pm alrdy
SO............... "good rest"
Go work as usual
Then a lot of indian men come to drink wine as usual
Irritating..
Beside of their noise, they also like to tease me
Haix~~ is my face look like toooo kind???
My boss cook herbal soup
maybe also can be said as snake herbal soup!??
They use the snake stew the soup
After that, i met my "rich goddad"
haha, so surprise of it!
quite a long time no see him after i move to s'pore
we chat a while
he said my english improved now, thx lot!!!
(actually i just dare to 'show' my english in somewhere else only)
I eat crab again
My boss bring me back home and eat the crab
So paiseh..
blackpepper crab... taste nice!!!!!
So i decided to take a good rest since last week
resign my S'pore part-time job
then back to my hometown - M'sia
however, i still got M'sia job
b'cos lack of worker there
so i can't leave them alone
anyway, cherish these days....
Still wonder how can i sleep around 14-15hours
When i woke up, it's 4pm alrdy
SO............... "good rest"
Go work as usual
Then a lot of indian men come to drink wine as usual
Irritating..
Beside of their noise, they also like to tease me
Haix~~ is my face look like toooo kind???
My boss cook herbal soup
maybe also can be said as snake herbal soup!??
They use the snake stew the soup
After that, i met my "rich goddad"
haha, so surprise of it!
quite a long time no see him after i move to s'pore
we chat a while
he said my english improved now, thx lot!!!
(actually i just dare to 'show' my english in somewhere else only)
I eat crab again
My boss bring me back home and eat the crab
So paiseh..
blackpepper crab... taste nice!!!!!
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