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2010年5月15日星期六

Awesome Day

Today is awesome day!!!!!!

First thing is i slept at 9pm yesterday and i woke up at 7.30am today. The feeling was so great!! So long time i never had such a good sleep after my school reopen. Always tired like hell.. Stress, stress and stress. That's why it makes me quite miss my m'sia life so much, especially secondary school life. No stress, play, slacking, ponteng, have fun in school even in the exam period. Hence, when people come to ask me how can i enter to poly, i usually tell them that is God's grace. Cause i really don't think my result can get into poly since i never put lot of efforts in my SPM.

A lot of people in the train when i went school. Finally found a seat. Just sat a while, got a voice asked me to give up the seat. I looked around and shocked. Really got a auntie who looks around 60++ years old walked into the train. Surely i gave up that seat immediately. When a guy who sat beside the auntie left, the auntie asked me sat beside her. I refused but she insisted on. So i went to sat beside her. When she prepared to alight from the train, she said "Jesus loves you." to me. I stunned there. Honestly, i was troubled with a lot of things recently. My faith started 动摇.. Seem like this words remind me once again, Lord is faithfulness. He will provides me everything.

God never fail to implement his promise. He showed His faithfulness again. He makes impossible to possible. Actually, the "big" problem that i faced before God shows His faithfulness is my living expense. Because i just have less than $50 for my meals in this month. Can you imagine your purse just has around $50 and you still got 1 month to go? Surely i worry of it! I don't want tell my parents. Don't want be their burden since they are also over-spent in this few months. However, God really shows His grace to me. My 2nd aunt asked me send money to her son but got something popped out. Then my 2nd aunt asked me to keep it. So my living expense should be okay now. Thank God!!

After went to astronomy club with jiafeng and siying, i prepared to back home. I ran into YanQiu who is from CF. Quite surprise when i saw her. Still remember that our 1st meet is in the CCA fiesta. That time, i suppose to go toilet. But when i saw her, got a voice asked me to intro about CF to her. So i ran back to took the flyer and started approach her. From the beginning, she threw everything out that she doesn't like go to church though she is a christian. But she felt we are interesting so end up she signed up. Thank God that she really join in CF!! Then we took bus together, as in she lives at Bedok and i live at Tampines so that we can take same bus all the way back home. Chat a lot and met her dad also!!!! So coincidence!! Enjun said seems like God really put me and her together. Maybe so.. Probably something special between me and her? I'm looking forward to how God leads us..

Anyway, full of thanksgiving.. Today is an AWESOME day to me!!!!!

2010年4月10日星期六

Who brings me there!?

After CF outing, i supposed to take train back home. Then a voice came to my ears to remind me go cell group which started at 8pm in church. I can reached there in time. But i was not willing to go!! Undoubtedly, i had my excuse that i considered as reasonable and enough to persuade me don't go.

"I'm very tired! And my gum damn pain. I need rest! blah blah blah..!@#$%#@.."

So... i can take bath.. online for a while. At last, go sleep. Yea, that's my plans later.

So i alighted at Eunos. Cos there has direct bus towards to my house. Some more, i take bus concession and i don't want waste it!!

On the bus and began feeling weird. Cos as usual the bus i took always got many passengers. Especially always no seat in this time! How come... Anyway, i have seat is the most important for me right now. So i just enjoyed with myself and had some reflection of my life in the bus(Is my habit).

Gosh.. The bus took me to a unfamiliar place. Read the road sign. Gosh again! I never saw it before. Where i am now???! I pressed the button and get off immediately. Zzzzz, i took wrong bus.. I took bus 61 and actually i had to take bus 67.

Went to the opposite road and supposed to took bus 61 back to the original place. Faint, don't have bus 61?!!! Then i took bus 62 which i not really confirmed with this bus's direction. This bus took me to Aljunied Road(bus stop which located in front of my church)!! I shocked, REALLY!! I end up back to church!!

I get off the bus and go to the cell group eventually. I was still puzzled though i was in the cell group. Who brings me there? God? Guess so.. Amazing, isn't it?

I trust God has His own reason for whatever He had done. So i asked God what He supposed me to learn, to know, to feel..

Fellowship, i think... God showed me that i have commitment in NPCF. In these few days, i was bothered with how to have a good bonding with brothers and sisters through events, how to attract more people come to join the fellowship, and etc.... Meanwhile, i not so active in my church event unless have my "closer friend" accompany me.

How to be my "closer friend"? I guess is quite hard if wanna to be a "closer friend" with me, unless u never give up to talk with me though i din give you too much responses, even shrugged. I not initiative like before. Maybe is the result of my past experiences. I rather choose either let people come to approach with me or i shut myself in a corner. It makes me uncomfortable if i take the initiative. I'll have many thoughts from men when he/she gives me some facial expressions which not as i expected.

So now, i know i ought to have a big breakthrough in this. Maybe i need put some efforts in connecting with people. Hope i can have a good job in Him!!

2010年3月24日星期三

CF FOC 2010

Yup, finally CF FOC 2010 is going to end.

Through this camp, i can see how God's work. How to say? Hmm, be frank, i very worry about this camp. Since someone told me that FOC not really got too many people sign up.. Then many problems came out by last minute. Seriously, it was a big trouble for me. But God's grace, He reminded me the power of pray through sis Eng Ing and bro Titus.

When i got the name list of the FOC camp, 26 persons signed up! 7 persons are freshmen. 3 of the freshmen are going to NP year 1. The main point is 4 of them are non-christians. Even though our target of the person who sign up are 40 persons, but God has His own plan. He arrange them come to join us. I trust it's not simply convenience.

Play play play all the time. Had fun. Had good bonding in Big Family. And can share God's words with sisters and brothers. Really had a good time here! And God also prepare a good weather for us! Before this camp, the weather was unpredictable. Praise our God! =)

Actually quite relax to be a camp leader. Because committees helped me do all the things. Don't say i bully my committees or what. I also tried to find something to help them. But also thanks God that prepare you all to helped me. You all really helped me a lot and i learn a lot from you all. Good job man...

Lastly, Give all praises, glories and thanks to our God once again!!!

2009年11月13日星期五

阿爸父

我好爱我的阿爸父
刚才搭巴士回家
在巴士突然嗅到KFC的味道
很香 突然让我有冲动想吃炸鸡
不过最后因为省钱 逼自己打消念头
结果回到家 我傻了
就这么巧 我公公刚好炸很多只炸鸡
我的天啊
虽然冷掉不脆了
不过想到这就是一种恩典 就觉得这些炸鸡很好吃
吃在口里 甜在心里 呵呵呵呵

本来明天的时间是超满的
上完课 就去洗车 洗完就喝绍菁姐会面吃晚餐 过后去SP的布道会服侍
忙到晚上9点多 non stop
刚突然收到绍菁姐的信息 她不得空
我想这应该是上帝的安排吧 希望我在布道会前好好预备自己
希望明天的布道会能够很顺利进行
一切交给神;荣耀归给你!!

最近自己又回去跳舞了
也会在28号表演Jazz dance
回家路上有种空虚的感觉
思绪乱糟糟 心情更沉进谷底
好像我不再是我 不喜欢这样的自己

我脸上没什么 不代表就是如此
我宁可走进自己的世界 也不要进入那不能接受我的世界
那种眼光 气氛 证明了有些事实是应该面对接受的
我不想继续在私底下拼命挣扎 不断呐喊自己的无能
我只想相信我作的决定会是你应许我作的事

2009年8月5日星期三

病倒了

一早量体温
38.8度了 完蛋
幸好我现在人在马来西亚了
不然我会被逼隔离

因为昨晚在新加坡诊所看医生
那时我的体温37点多
医生问我已经这么烧了 怎么这么迟才来看
还说如果超过38度了 就要被隔离
因为怀疑是H1N1的症状
还要吃一种药我忘了那个叫什么
我懂那种药是给人tahan体力的
暂时拿了两天MC
我看完医生后 就赶回去马来西亚了

现在 我的喉咙很痛
咳嗽 发冷 发烧 头也一直晕晕酱
我已经很久没这样生病了
我好像又回温了小时候生病辛苦的感觉
我一直想哭 还一直偷偷发脾气
我不敢给妈妈看到
因为妈妈已经很担心我了
他说我小时候就没什么生病了
每次一生病就会很严重

不过还是感谢主
我还不至于没胃口
反而还一直想吃东西
吃东西时喉咙好像有膜盖着了我喉咙发炎的地方
不会痛 还吃到很爽
不过给妈妈下禁令 不能吃太饱
因为他要给我吃一大堆中药
难吃到~~~~~

希望自己能快快好起来
要考试了 而且还是身体健康的感觉比较好

2009年6月24日星期三

人一开始衰 什么都倒霉

今天一早
我就被逼爬起来
昨天差不多凌晨六点才睡
才睡三、四个小时就被叫醒了
头超重 超痛的

小妹最近生病
病了一星期
没吃没喝
软绵绵 没起色
妈妈朋友怀疑可能是中毛丹
所以妈妈赶快再带小妹去看医生
先去皇后看中医师
再去大学城看西医师

中医师担心会脱水
建议我们带小妹去吊水
西医师怀疑中肺炎
也建议小妹要住院观察

可是
经济又是我们最大问题
去私人 住一天花费少少都要上千
去政府 又怕医务人员太慢
等下妹妹会高烧到变傻子

抉择了好久
一个很有爱心的儿科医生
帮我小妹喷了药 无收费
那个药可以维持到六小时
所以我们可以在政府医院慢慢等
爸爸也可以减少些重担
而这时候 感谢主
妹妹渐渐也精神了一点
开始会讲话 会玩一点 吃一点

到政府医院
进急症室
马上就到我们了
不过那里的医务人员不让太多人进
所以我妈留我和我小妹进去
因为他不太会说马来文
在里面
老实说 我真的很怕
我不懂我怕什么
医务人员告诉我小妹呼吸有点困难
所以他们替她插氧气管
很可怜 看了也很心酸

在病房里 巧遇Pn Asiah
他儿子也住院
和我小妹同房
遇到老师 突然觉得有缘
看到老师孩子 觉得这也不是件好事

坐我爸摩托回家的时候
已经十一点多了
结果继续衰…
我们被打枪
有辆摩托靠近我们
抢我爸摩托篮的东西
不过他只抢到报纸
几秒钟的时间
我完全傻了 魂魄差不多要飞走了
心跳很快 眼泪也快飚出来了

其实我是有发现这辆摩托
也发现他越来越靠近我们
不过我天真地以为他要割车
结果什么心理准备都没有

或许该感谢主的是
事发前三十秒钟我还在sms
幸好我把手机抓紧了

突然自己的感触又深了很多
我们都不知道自己下一秒会变怎样
那我们何必要为这一秒的某些事不开心
为某个不小心惹你的人生气 甚至计划恨他一辈子
为自己尊严告诉自己等过阵子再跟某个人道歉
为自己的小小损失和别人吵架计较

人算不如天算
事情发生了 什么都不能再倒带了
所以说呢
为什么还停留原地的去羡慕妒忌别人的有
计较自己的没有 愤恨命运的不公平
如果选择珍惜现在自己的拥有会不会更实际了点呢?



虽然今天发生了很多事
但我还是praise my Lord….
Because He still is my strength..

2009年3月6日星期五

见证

close sale的时候
老板娘说我的帐目不对
cash register里头少了RN175.10
OMG~~
这个数字说大不大 说小不小
而且这还是我第一次失算到这么严重
老板娘也不相信
一直重算
我心里有点焦急
头脑一直在想我今天所有钱的流失方向
可是最近脑袋有点迟钝
一直想不出个所以然
心里一直说:上帝啊,那些钱到底跑去哪里了哦

不知怎么的
心里有个很强的声音叫我翻开advance的voucher
起初我不曾理会
因为我想哪里可能
今天好像都没有人借支勒
不过 意念越来越强烈
没办法 就打开来看咯
OMG~~
果然答案真的在里面

原来今天Vincent出粮
借用了cash register的钱
真相大白
喘了一大口气
不然真的冤枉到要命
虽然就算short钱 老板也没要我赔
不过良心~~haiz

幸好上帝给的signal
或许大家可以告诉我那是巧合
但是太多的巧合一直发生
那就不再叫做巧合了
anyway,
上帝,thanks~~