Who brings me there!?

After CF outing, i supposed to take train back home. Then a voice came to my ears to remind me go cell group which started at 8pm in church. I can reached there in time. But i was not willing to go!! Undoubtedly, i had my excuse that i considered as reasonable and enough to persuade me don't go.

"I'm very tired! And my gum damn pain. I need rest! blah blah blah..!@#$%#@.."

So... i can take bath.. online for a while. At last, go sleep. Yea, that's my plans later.

So i alighted at Eunos. Cos there has direct bus towards to my house. Some more, i take bus concession and i don't want waste it!!

On the bus and began feeling weird. Cos as usual the bus i took always got many passengers. Especially always no seat in this time! How come... Anyway, i have seat is the most important for me right now. So i just enjoyed with myself and had some reflection of my life in the bus(Is my habit).

Gosh.. The bus took me to a unfamiliar place. Read the road sign. Gosh again! I never saw it before. Where i am now???! I pressed the button and get off immediately. Zzzzz, i took wrong bus.. I took bus 61 and actually i had to take bus 67.

Went to the opposite road and supposed to took bus 61 back to the original place. Faint, don't have bus 61?!!! Then i took bus 62 which i not really confirmed with this bus's direction. This bus took me to Aljunied Road(bus stop which located in front of my church)!! I shocked, REALLY!! I end up back to church!!

I get off the bus and go to the cell group eventually. I was still puzzled though i was in the cell group. Who brings me there? God? Guess so.. Amazing, isn't it?

I trust God has His own reason for whatever He had done. So i asked God what He supposed me to learn, to know, to feel..

Fellowship, i think... God showed me that i have commitment in NPCF. In these few days, i was bothered with how to have a good bonding with brothers and sisters through events, how to attract more people come to join the fellowship, and etc.... Meanwhile, i not so active in my church event unless have my "closer friend" accompany me.

How to be my "closer friend"? I guess is quite hard if wanna to be a "closer friend" with me, unless u never give up to talk with me though i din give you too much responses, even shrugged. I not initiative like before. Maybe is the result of my past experiences. I rather choose either let people come to approach with me or i shut myself in a corner. It makes me uncomfortable if i take the initiative. I'll have many thoughts from men when he/she gives me some facial expressions which not as i expected.

So now, i know i ought to have a big breakthrough in this. Maybe i need put some efforts in connecting with people. Hope i can have a good job in Him!!