By right, i was not willing to come Singapore. Cos a long journey will make me very tiring. Anyway, i went in.
Reached there, saw every CF member seemed very sian sian one. Sian liao lor, i think. Just sat there for a while, ChiaLing and Enjun came to tell me they want to leave soon. ZZZzzzzzz.. What the heck i come in Singapore?? After that, Enjun told me have Pastor Philip Mantofa's conference tonight, tmr n wed. I guess this is the one reason that i can pursuade myself luckily i come in. Otherwise, Enjun may not tell me this news. And i'll lost a chance again. (Last year i was kinda sad due to i was still having school during the period of A4J.)
Excited. And i told to my mum once i back home. So next day (which is yesterday), my parents n sisters came to join the conference. It was too bad cos the translator unable to translate to mand well. Hence, my parents can't get any things from there.
Today morning, i went to the church again for the discipline's training. Free admission. Surely i won't let the chance go. It taught by Pastor Philip Mantofa. He shared a lot of testimonies. Very very amazing!!!! What i really really feel grateful is i saw the fire of revival start burning in Singapore. Recall back when i just stepped into Singapore, i told the people about revival. They all looked blur. Totally no idea about this. Now, i witness many Singaporeans gather together to cry out for themselves and own country, even foreigners come to pray together too!! It's awesome!!!
Sometimes, i keep controling myself. Why? I seem like crazy over this pastor. But i think his's true heart towards Jesus is a main reason he attracts me. I hope i can have a warm-hearted like him. The fire keep burning and burning. Mug God's words again and again. Stands firm in Christ no matter what. Witness God shows His miracles once again and again. I like to have every single things which is about God. Listen to God, even when He's whispering. Humble and obey God's plan. All of these is what i desire of now. But i know some part of my heart still very dry. Yet i'm finding my water resource.
Every outcomes come from truly desire. God, i really desire you!!!!! I pray i can keep desire you every singel day. My desire never ever paused in this post, is keep continue in my every SINGLE day!!!!
2010年6月23日星期三
2010年6月15日星期二
2010年6月12日星期六
当时,我和你...
相片定格了当时的我们
昔日的我们笑得好灿烂
每日拾掇那些的回忆
缀成片片断断的思量
稚气的我们 纯纯的友谊
用尽了年轻的活力与狂野
一块在球场大声欢呼
一块为某个男生疯狂
一块叽叽喳喳大声笑
一块在上课时打呼噜
地球每天在自转 太阳依然在自焚
时间滴滴答答走 岁月一去不留人
如今的我们 已决分道扬镳
独自到世界某个角落
继续彩绘自己的天空
有人说
成长是痛苦的累积
也是一条崎岖不平的道路
我却说
纵使满众荆棘 我也不怕
因为有你 才让我的生活从此精彩
正因为
生命就像一朵绽放的花
虽然没有动人的外观
却有散发香味的时候
生命不一定要轰轰烈烈
最重要的是能刻苦铭心
昔日的我们笑得好灿烂
每日拾掇那些的回忆
缀成片片断断的思量
稚气的我们 纯纯的友谊
用尽了年轻的活力与狂野
一块在球场大声欢呼
一块为某个男生疯狂
一块叽叽喳喳大声笑
一块在上课时打呼噜
地球每天在自转 太阳依然在自焚
时间滴滴答答走 岁月一去不留人
如今的我们 已决分道扬镳
独自到世界某个角落
继续彩绘自己的天空
有人说
成长是痛苦的累积
也是一条崎岖不平的道路
我却说
纵使满众荆棘 我也不怕
因为有你 才让我的生活从此精彩
正因为
生命就像一朵绽放的花
虽然没有动人的外观
却有散发香味的时候
生命不一定要轰轰烈烈
最重要的是能刻苦铭心
2010年6月11日星期五
2010年6月6日星期日
My home, my country
Most of the Malaysians speak bad about Malaysia after they came to Singapore. When you try to ask them whether they love their country, they always give you a similar answer. "I love my country, but my country doesn't love me." How come?
1. Because they failed to get scholarship but his/her friends whose result worse get it easily.
2. Malaysia's political and social too dark. (If you're Malaysian, surely you know that though you might not have habit of reading newspaper.)
3. Dislike involved in the different race groups. (Perhaps had some bad experience before.)
And many other reasons...
When i just came to Singapore, i was quite sensitive with the words which related to "Malaysia", even now. Mostly i heard is about how bad Malaysia is. Kinda sad, actually. My home country failed to give a good image to foreigners, even those who are Malaysians are still trying persuade foreigners don't go to Malaysia due to there is unsafe place.
Why not we think in another way? We don't ever have any choice to born in which country. Perhaps we can change our nationality when we are adult. But have you try to think deeply about that may have some beautiful reasons why you born in this country? God always done His job with a wonderful reason behind and He won't explain to you why he did that for you.
Usually, our prayer center on ourselves. We request God give us things/results that we want. Blame God, complain everything when our demands never satisfied. But we never ever give a thought that the things that God gives to us is a lesson? We always complain a lot about our country. Why not we pray for our country always? Believe God, He'll transform Malaysia one day? Perhaps God is waiting for Malaysians' cry out for own country!!!!! So don't hestitate or underestimate your prayer. Just cry out once a year better than you never ever do that!!
"Do you love ur home coutry?" Yes, i am. Forever and ever. Though it seems like unlovable now. And i still believe that i'll see the revival in Malaysia one day, now and ever. Because my God is Big Big God!!! :D
1. Because they failed to get scholarship but his/her friends whose result worse get it easily.
2. Malaysia's political and social too dark. (If you're Malaysian, surely you know that though you might not have habit of reading newspaper.)
3. Dislike involved in the different race groups. (Perhaps had some bad experience before.)
And many other reasons...
When i just came to Singapore, i was quite sensitive with the words which related to "Malaysia", even now. Mostly i heard is about how bad Malaysia is. Kinda sad, actually. My home country failed to give a good image to foreigners, even those who are Malaysians are still trying persuade foreigners don't go to Malaysia due to there is unsafe place.
Why not we think in another way? We don't ever have any choice to born in which country. Perhaps we can change our nationality when we are adult. But have you try to think deeply about that may have some beautiful reasons why you born in this country? God always done His job with a wonderful reason behind and He won't explain to you why he did that for you.
Usually, our prayer center on ourselves. We request God give us things/results that we want. Blame God, complain everything when our demands never satisfied. But we never ever give a thought that the things that God gives to us is a lesson? We always complain a lot about our country. Why not we pray for our country always? Believe God, He'll transform Malaysia one day? Perhaps God is waiting for Malaysians' cry out for own country!!!!! So don't hestitate or underestimate your prayer. Just cry out once a year better than you never ever do that!!
"Do you love ur home coutry?" Yes, i am. Forever and ever. Though it seems like unlovable now. And i still believe that i'll see the revival in Malaysia one day, now and ever. Because my God is Big Big God!!! :D
2010年6月5日星期六
Deeply Feel..
It supposed to fill with my complaints again at first. But God is amazing in every time. He let me busy with something to calm down before i have time to post my blog.
I know there has something wrong inside me. Angry? Frustrate? Desperate? Psychological imbalance? I not sure. I just feel something bad inside.
Due to i'm the youngest among them, so that they treat me like a little sister? So they have to tolerate my everything which related to me? Think i should feel grateful for this kind of treatment more than complaint it. Yet i can't get used to it!! In the past, i always be the da-jie-da(leader) like that. In home church, in group, at home, even sometimes in school, i seldom be the smallest. Perhaps God is putting me into this place and let me feel as well?
Honestly, i feel tough in the sharing time. Why? Because everyone share their experience in eng. When is my turn, bro & sis will tell me:"Joyce, you can speak in chinese!". Perhaps i should think in this way, as in they just don't want me become stress? It's just a concern? Actually, i rather have someone give me chance to speak eng and correct me when i'm in wrong in pronounce or what than indulge me. Anyway, i know the day will coming. I believe, God will gives me His beautiful things in His time!!!!
I just realise currently i tend to be a listener than a speaker. In the fellowship, i always be a listener. It's quite tough for me, actually. Cause previously i can just talked talked talked what i wanted to say. Perhaps it's also one of the homework that God give me to learn? It's the time for me learn to quiet? However, in some part of my feeling, i felt that i not really get involved in the fellowship though i joined them to Austin's trip. Our relationship just built in the surface of friendship only and that's all!! Why? Due to time gathering is not enough yet? I'm still waiting for an answer for this................
Anyway, i was glad because
1. Finally, i ate grapes!!! It tastes nice!!!(it had been a long long time since i ate grapes last time)
2. Finally, i went for K!!! Though the people who went with me is not you all..
3. Finally, i went to HARRIS where is located at Tebrau!!!!! If i don't have guitar lesson and not need to be a pianist in service tmr, i know i won't be back with them and stay there till i satisfy. And i hope i have a lot of cash in my hands to buy the books that i want at once. But so sad, too poor recently. Forget it!! ='(
And this journey makes me looking forward to FMC family trip more and more RIGHT NOW!!!!!
*I just realise you're really not my taste.*
I know there has something wrong inside me. Angry? Frustrate? Desperate? Psychological imbalance? I not sure. I just feel something bad inside.
Due to i'm the youngest among them, so that they treat me like a little sister? So they have to tolerate my everything which related to me? Think i should feel grateful for this kind of treatment more than complaint it. Yet i can't get used to it!! In the past, i always be the da-jie-da(leader) like that. In home church, in group, at home, even sometimes in school, i seldom be the smallest. Perhaps God is putting me into this place and let me feel as well?
Honestly, i feel tough in the sharing time. Why? Because everyone share their experience in eng. When is my turn, bro & sis will tell me:"Joyce, you can speak in chinese!". Perhaps i should think in this way, as in they just don't want me become stress? It's just a concern? Actually, i rather have someone give me chance to speak eng and correct me when i'm in wrong in pronounce or what than indulge me. Anyway, i know the day will coming. I believe, God will gives me His beautiful things in His time!!!!
I just realise currently i tend to be a listener than a speaker. In the fellowship, i always be a listener. It's quite tough for me, actually. Cause previously i can just talked talked talked what i wanted to say. Perhaps it's also one of the homework that God give me to learn? It's the time for me learn to quiet? However, in some part of my feeling, i felt that i not really get involved in the fellowship though i joined them to Austin's trip. Our relationship just built in the surface of friendship only and that's all!! Why? Due to time gathering is not enough yet? I'm still waiting for an answer for this................
Anyway, i was glad because
1. Finally, i ate grapes!!! It tastes nice!!!(it had been a long long time since i ate grapes last time)
2. Finally, i went for K!!! Though the people who went with me is not you all..
3. Finally, i went to HARRIS where is located at Tebrau!!!!! If i don't have guitar lesson and not need to be a pianist in service tmr, i know i won't be back with them and stay there till i satisfy. And i hope i have a lot of cash in my hands to buy the books that i want at once. But so sad, too poor recently. Forget it!! ='(
And this journey makes me looking forward to FMC family trip more and more RIGHT NOW!!!!!
*I just realise you're really not my taste.*
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