A lesson

Suddenly feel that someone who really know me had gone.
Suddenly feel that i'm alone all the way.
Wonder why i have this feeling..

At a time, i started dislike him. Hmm, maybe from the time we had dinner? Maybe from the time he did some irritating things? No idea. I just know i have some uncomfortable feeling when i stand on same space, breathing the same air with him.

In some things, i know i'm very independant. I have my own decision and naturally hope everyone will do all the things as i thought. Erm, i admit i'm quite stubborn and proud. (Lord have mercy!! =( ) So when someone is trying against me, i'll feel irritating but i wouldn't show it up and just remain silent.

Perhaps i was biased against him. Perhaps he just wants to warm up the atmosphere. But i can't take it with his joke. At first, i laughed cos i felt it's a good joke. But now, i felt it's lame, really.

I know my condition so i never took over the group leader. I know i can go to catch up to the brother and say "hi" before i went into the room. But not, i never do that cos i can't. Before split into groups, i was praying dun same group with him. So sad i end up same group with him. Perhaps God wants me learn to obey. 100% unwillingly join into the group. I know i can comment, as in elaborating my answer, but i not! I was using a simple way to share my answer (My answer not more than 5 lines).

"Do you have any complain in your ministry?" Yes. I have. Cos this post is fulling with my complains!!! Just now i can't share my answer. But even if i can share, i don't think i'll share it. Perhaps i should put down my bias and using right attitude re-treat him.

可能 或许 我是丑陋的......

GOD HAVE MERCY!!!!!!!

Awesome Day

Today is awesome day!!!!!!

First thing is i slept at 9pm yesterday and i woke up at 7.30am today. The feeling was so great!! So long time i never had such a good sleep after my school reopen. Always tired like hell.. Stress, stress and stress. That's why it makes me quite miss my m'sia life so much, especially secondary school life. No stress, play, slacking, ponteng, have fun in school even in the exam period. Hence, when people come to ask me how can i enter to poly, i usually tell them that is God's grace. Cause i really don't think my result can get into poly since i never put lot of efforts in my SPM.

A lot of people in the train when i went school. Finally found a seat. Just sat a while, got a voice asked me to give up the seat. I looked around and shocked. Really got a auntie who looks around 60++ years old walked into the train. Surely i gave up that seat immediately. When a guy who sat beside the auntie left, the auntie asked me sat beside her. I refused but she insisted on. So i went to sat beside her. When she prepared to alight from the train, she said "Jesus loves you." to me. I stunned there. Honestly, i was troubled with a lot of things recently. My faith started 动摇.. Seem like this words remind me once again, Lord is faithfulness. He will provides me everything.

God never fail to implement his promise. He showed His faithfulness again. He makes impossible to possible. Actually, the "big" problem that i faced before God shows His faithfulness is my living expense. Because i just have less than $50 for my meals in this month. Can you imagine your purse just has around $50 and you still got 1 month to go? Surely i worry of it! I don't want tell my parents. Don't want be their burden since they are also over-spent in this few months. However, God really shows His grace to me. My 2nd aunt asked me send money to her son but got something popped out. Then my 2nd aunt asked me to keep it. So my living expense should be okay now. Thank God!!

After went to astronomy club with jiafeng and siying, i prepared to back home. I ran into YanQiu who is from CF. Quite surprise when i saw her. Still remember that our 1st meet is in the CCA fiesta. That time, i suppose to go toilet. But when i saw her, got a voice asked me to intro about CF to her. So i ran back to took the flyer and started approach her. From the beginning, she threw everything out that she doesn't like go to church though she is a christian. But she felt we are interesting so end up she signed up. Thank God that she really join in CF!! Then we took bus together, as in she lives at Bedok and i live at Tampines so that we can take same bus all the way back home. Chat a lot and met her dad also!!!! So coincidence!! Enjun said seems like God really put me and her together. Maybe so.. Probably something special between me and her? I'm looking forward to how God leads us..

Anyway, full of thanksgiving.. Today is an AWESOME day to me!!!!!

我怀念的

我怀念的是
那时的我们一块在运动会上表演
我怀念的是
那时的我们总是不顾旁人的高歌
我怀念的是
那时的我们为"屋顶"在makmal排练
我怀念的是
我们下课一块走去食堂吃nasi lemak+鸡腿
我怀念的是
我们在那马来档口买零食汉堡包
我怀念的是
我说我很热 有人告诉我脱衣咯
我怀念的是
我帮某人跟他的情人传简讯
我怀念的是
我们轮流奚落对方的时光
我怀念的是
我们一起在上课时趴在桌上就呼呼大睡 起身时已经换节了
我怀念的是
我们总在老师不在课室时就开始移椅子聚在一块小声说大声笑
我怀念的是
我们说好要一块绕学校 装好心帮老师
我怀念的是
我们一起找交通回家 也总是会有人载我们回家
我怀念的是
我们一块嫌弃有人一提起东方神奇的时候
我怀念的是
我们一块望出窗外看男人
我怀念的是
我们一块开心的聊男人 38彼此的事情
我怀念的是
我们说好明天出去 结果大家都在放飞机
我怀念的是
那时的我们一出门就是吃pizza hut
我怀念的是
我们莫名其妙有了大便国的非法组织
我怀念的是
我们偷偷把迟交的功课塞进学生作业里
我怀念的是
老师说做好作业才能回家 我们就已从后门溜回家了
我怀念的是
考试的那个早上 我们都是猛啃书 一群临时抱佛脚的家伙..

总是有好多无厘头的话题
让我们这样嘻嘻哈哈的一块度过了5年
我们的5年时光
就这样无意的被我这个长情的人挑起

谢谢你们
让我猛然发现原来让我最深刻的回忆是我的中学生涯

我好想回到那时的我们每天穿着一样的制服
到学校就会看到大家的那段时光........
朋友,可不可以有一天我们一块出门时 是大家都到齐的?