Life

Year 2009 almost going to the end
do u have any change in this year?
do u achieve ur target which u'd planned before u started ur 2009's life?

Honestly, my life had a big change
I come to survive in a new life that i never thought, never dreamt before
go through many many things
go through many many feeling

"GIVE UP!! BACK TO M'SIA~"
this sentence came into my mind few times
still wonder how i survive till now
haven't give up eventually, just obey and obey
Is god's grace, i know

Become more emo, no reason, no why
i always shut myself in my own world
remain silent, stop being a clown of the life
Do my true self, my things that i want
Ignore how other look at me
I find out that's a way i can enjoy my life
peace of my mind and rest in Your hands
Natural and unrestrained
and not Joyce who u knew before...
So if u notice that i don't want talk much, please don't force me!!
Thanks~

Since the day of i came here
i realize that actually my adaptability not very well
need a long long time to adapt everything
I thought my tears dried, don't know how to cry already
However i still be a cry baby here, LOL
maybe i haven't find a place where can truely adapt me yet
but is it a excuse to explain my adaptability?

blur-ing also very visible in these days
always outside the situation and stunned there, don't know what's going on
my clumsy always spoil many things, many plans
very depressed and frustrated about it
However i realize that the more i want to make it better, the more i make it worse
Just let it be~~

I also notice that still have many things waiting for me
wait for me to overcome, to learn, to enjoy
Very regret about my slack before
so now, i need to start everything again and catch others as fast as i can
Despite of my tired, i always remind myself to change my view for these "challenging"
Still insist to say "Hallelujah, praise my Lord!" no matter how worse of my life
is tough, but i believe someday i can do it!

2 months more
I want to appreciate those days and enjoy it!
Achieve my target as more as i can
make my life more dramatic!!
Go Go Go!!!!